Well, untill you wont resign - he wont resign too. Isnt it a funny thing? You know that cancer dies with the body? Or you need to kill some body to get rid of it. So does the fear dies with the ego... or you need to kill some part of it.

Oh, and the guilt of not living. The primordial cultural thing. Just sit with it. Sit long enough that your legs go numb. The guilt will go numb soon after. Or go do work... work so hard till body/mind/whatever goes numb. The guilt goes numb soon after. All this other nonsense is just in between...